I'm so happy (so i'm sharing)

I found it. My ring. The one piece of sentimental jewlery that left me dissapointed in myself for the past 2 years has been found. I don't know how many times i've gone through every box that i've moved with thinking it had to be somewhere. Two moves and a third coming up, and I could never have guessed that I would stumble upon it. But I did. And in a few days, it gladly becomes reunited with my mother by her request, as I know she will keep it in her lock box and it will only see daylight when it is gazed upon for occasional quick viewing and memory sharing sessions.

I was given this ring for my High School graduation. The ring was pieced together by my Grandmother Nancy. A gold ring with two diamonds. One, a small chip, and the other, a 1/3 carat, beautiful white and nearly perfect. The diamond is the same diamond that my Bio-Dad used to propose to my mother with back in the mid-70s. They were divorced when I was knee high to a grasshopper, and my Mother and Grandmother decided that it would be a good idea to take the diamond, and place it in a men's setting, to give to me if and when I graduated High School (yes I did graduate!). It's really the only link I have between both of my Biological parents, so to me it's priceless. No matter how broke I am, that ring would stay with me.

I wore that ring everyday for many years, until I decided to keep it safe in my drawer. Yeah, safe. I had assumed that it was stolen out of one of the places i've lived, or simply that my responsible self managed to lose it somehow. I'm just glad it's safe and sound, and am going to knock on wood now that I don't lose it again. Or better yet, just not misplace it.

This album rocks!

That's really all I wanted to say. It's the guitarist of The Faint on his side project. Sort of new wave/dance, idm, melodic and all beautiful. My living room is filled with wonderful new sounds at the moment. I can't think of many things as satisfying to me as discovering new music. It's just one of those things that has always put a smile on my face. Like a kid in a candy store is how I feel at a good record shop. Oh, and living 3 blocks from Easy Street Records in Queen Anne absolutely rules.
  • Current Music
    Broken Spindles - fulfilled/complete

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What kind of disease are you?

Kurt Sentrik:

Kurt Sentrik is caused by sponges.

Kurt Sentrik makes subjects desire sex. With lepers.
There is no cure for Kurt Sentrik.

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I got my first sale today! I am one of the first three out of my training class of about 22 to close a sale and acquire my first account. It was for an HP server and a 1gb memory upgrade. Damn it feels good to be a gangsta.

Watch out for the prostitution ring on HWY 99.

I just had a strange experience on my ride home from getting a haircut at my cousin's house. I was driving down the freeway minding my own business and this guy pulls up beside me with this evil glare. So i look back at him straight faced, we pull up to a stop light, he's one car ahead of my in the other lane, and he's totally mean mugging me. So I look back at him straight faced until the light turns, and we head down the road again. Then he starts slowing down and speeding up to drive even with me so I had given him the "what do you want" look. So after looking back at him after his third time driving up and down he makes this dick sucking motion at me. I was like, uhhh, ok, and gave him a "whatever, no thanks" look and continued driving, but it was fucking weird, i couldn't tell if he was pissed off at me for something I inadvertantly did or if he was propositioning me, but whatever it was disturbed the shit out of me.

Although, I did just get my hair cut, so you know, it was probably just that i'm so damn sexy right now. I'm actually in the process of growing it out, and one of these days it'll hopefully be like this, well, just a bit shorter:

Started a new job...

Well I was able to find a job in a matter of a week. Felt pretty good after what had happened. So what does it entail you might ask? Well i'll tell you...

It's a position at zones.com, which used to be known as Mac Zones for any old schooler Mac users. What i'll be doing is basically sales, making contacts and creating business accounts and maintaining them through direct contact. It's sounding like a highly challenging position, and the training which started Monday is quite extensive. There will be 8 weeks of training, in which time we will learn about the company, in depth sales knowledge, as well as product training in just about every computer and IT category you can think of. I'm very excited about the training. Even if the position doesn't pan out for me, the training will provide me with many options to choose from. I could find another IT job, pretty much any sales job that interests me, and I also might complete that A+ cert that i've spoken of for so long. The only downfall is that they are located in Auburn. I guess I can at least think in the positive by being from Auburn, therefore familiar with the surroundings. Go Supermall! Heh, just kidding.

Off to bed for a 5:30am wakeup. THAT is the hardest part. G'night.
  • Current Music
    Learn To Fly - Foo Fighters

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A beautiful day for snowboarding. Tom and I went up to Mt. Baker today for the last day of the season. The temperature felt like about 65-70, and the snow was supringly pleasant. We borrowed some sunscreen from a fellow snowboarder, and headed up for the last time this year in snow pants and t-shirts. At one point we wanted to work on our tans and took our shirts off. If only snow didn't melt, I would be up on the mountain snowboarding all summer long. So much fun, pics to come.

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Well, today was a day that I won't soon forget. I was fired from my job. And it sucks too, because it was a good job. There were good people to work with. The job itself was very educating and dynamic. It was a very unique opportunity to work for a huge and ever growing company, and to literally be positioned at the pulse of the organization.

What i've been working out in my head however is what happened to actually warrant my termination. I feel very betrayed in a lot of ways, and I don't quite know how I should be feeling right now. I have already gone through a denial stage, an acceptance stage, a "what the fuck do I do now" stage, and perhaps now i'm entering my "fuck it all where's the vodka" stage. I find it amusing and somewhat ironic, that the job in which my attendance was the best out of any company i've worked for, ends up being the reason i'm let go. I've never been fired before. The closest I came was when I worked for Boeing, and even then they considered it a "voluntary termination", which is basically saying that I quit showing up, therefore i'm deemed to have quit. That's a whole can of worms I won't open up, only to say that I was laid off, then rehired for less money and more work, surrounded by cancer causing chemicals that made me sick.

So now i'm surrounded with words of support from those close to me, both optimistic and pessimistic, dealing with where I am in life. I was happy that this job brought me some stability and income and education. It has felt like one of the only things I had going for me recently. And now i'm at it once again, time to update the resume, break out the course catalog to start school again, and hope that the unemployment doesn't deny me of benefits causing me to lose the apartment.

Resume could look something like:

Contributions to the company:
Worked my ass off
Helped the organization through one of the only things that they can consider successful in the past 4 months with the integration of two departments
Came in during the worst possible hours of the day to help take calls on a regular basis
Put up with so much shit and was late every now and again,
maybe once a month but rarely absent
That's it
That's how i was fired
I was on a 3 month probation for missing too many days mostly because of doctors appts. that i didn't have time to schedule off
I was 2 months and 2 weeks through the probation when I overslept by a bit on the day that I come in 2 hours early for overtime and subsequently let go 15 minutes before the end of my shift
Huge corporations that are micro managed rule! hire me!

Heh, maybe not.

Tomorrow i'm going to try to not let this get the best of me. I'm hoping it will bring out the best of me actually. I don't lay blame on anyone but myself, it just sucks when you try and improve, but it still ends up not being enough.